Friday, April 10, 2015

word of the week #15


It has been a strange week. There was the enjoyment of easter and the long weekend, lovely to spend time with family and have a break. However last week we got some news that a family friend had died suddenly, in an accident, leaving behind a young family.

It is desperately sad and I have found myself in an uneasy mood all week. It is something about that very sudden loss of life, the instantaneous nature of it, a moment between being living and dying, how immediately we can cease to be. I remember feeling very similar when someone at my university died suddenly in an accident. It is something other than grief, it is a sense that seems to creep under my skin and make me uncomfortable for a while. Whilst living each day as if it is your last can be galvanising, thinking that in any one second a life can be over without warning is somehow paralysing.

I know the mood will pass, the sadness at the loss will remain, but the fear about life's fragility will fade. For now though, I am grateful to have the means to express my thoughts here. I realise it isn't a cheerful read for anyone else, but even the act of articulating what I am feeling somehow makes it more easily overcome. We are away for the weekend, I went to work this morning in England and we will fall asleep now in Brussels, a city we have visited before and enjoyed very much. I am looking forward to the familiarity of this place, coupled with the change in mood that comes with a change in scenery. Some exploring with The Husband, and some easier days ahead. 

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  1. Oh, I am sorry to hear of your loss. I know just the feeling that you mean, too, having lost two young friends. It's just wrong and the fragility of life really comes rushing home to you. My thoughts go out to their young family, too x Thanks for sharing with #WotW

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    1. thanks for visiting Jocelyn, and for your kind comment. I am very aware that I hadn't seen them in a number of years yet it still had such an impact. Sorry to hear about your friends too x

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  2. so sorry to read your news Katie, thinking of you x

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  3. Very upsetting news Katie, no wonder you feel uneasy. Living each second like it's your last would be a pretty exhausting process though, I guess we just have to enjoy each day and be glad we are here to enjoy it with our loved ones. X

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    1. thanks Penny, you're right, such a lovely way of putting it xx

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  4. Sorry for the loss of your friend. It is never easy losing someone and when they have a young family it brings it home, I can fully understand why you are feeling uneasy.

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    1. thanks for visiting Ashley, I had not seen them in many years, but the loss for their family has been very sad to see. x

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  5. I am sorry. This is not a good news and such news will really make one contemplate. Sending your hugs. #wotw

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    1. thank you for visiting, contemplation is such a good word, that is exactly right x

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  6. I too, am so sorry for your loss, Katie. I hope you find the familiarity of Brussels to be healing. xx

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    1. thank you for visiting Grace, and for your kind words x

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