Sunday, May 04, 2014

you're talking but you don't say anything

(The Feeling - Turn It Up)

I started this new blog, because I was finding the self-imposed minimum word count over on my old blog was stopping me from writing as often as I would have liked. Although I'm posting much more often, I feel like I'm writing a lot less. I'm thoroughly enjoying linking up with projects, and taking more pictures, but I started blogging because I enjoyed the process of writing, of playing with words, of taking a topic and presenting my perspective.

The Husband is away on a stag do this weekend, and I've been going to bed fairly late, mainly so that I would be tired enough to fall asleep immediately. Otherwise, the peculiarity of lying alone in our bed would have prevented me from drifting off. It seems bizarre when I think that for the great majority of our relationship The Husband and I didn't go to sleep in the same house, let alone the same bed. In fact, what is even more unusual, although it seemed anything but at the time, is the fact that we got engaged and bought a house having never actually lived together. We had, however, lived in different counties for six years of those first eight years, spent a few months on different continents, and spent any time we were together in university accommodation, student houses, or our parent's homes. While it wasn't without its rough patches, I suppose having survived all of that, actually living under the same roof, and not sharing the bathroom and kitchen with three other people seemed like a doddle.

It is amusing how quickly it has become the norm, and as I sit up into the early hours, grateful for Millie's company, I realise that having a weekend in the house alone is a novelty, but going to sleep alone less so. And so it was that last night, having run out of lives on Candy Crush (guilty pleasure),  having managed to clear my bloglovin feed (feel free to follow me here!), not wanting to start a book knowing that I would find myself still reading several hours later, and looking for something to help me switch off, I went back to my old blog for a read.




It's funny how your perspective changes with time, how things seem different when you gain a little distance. I quite enjoyed re-visiting the posts, and far from the cringing I expected, I felt proud of taking the plunge and starting, and seeing where I have come. I also realised it was a very different style of blogging to what I have been doing more recently, and I miss it. I seem to have got into a pattern of writing regularly, committed to the projects I am joining in with, but it seems to have become an automatic process. I'd like to shift the balance a little and make a bit more time for longer, wordier posts, rather than much of what I'm doing currently, which seems to be guided by which pictures I have taken.

I'm not sure what about, I might revisit the writealm prompts for some inspiration, as I look back at my previous pages and feel decidedly out of practice! For now though, Millie has stopped snoring on my knee and looks ready to be let out again, and I have a busy day planned for tomorrow before The Husband returns home. So I shall go to bed at a reasonable hour, pile up all of the pillows, and make the most of the middle of the mattress.

6 comments:

  1. It is interesting to look back and on old posts and see how things have changed...both things in life and writing style. I feel like even every month, my blog evolves a little!

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    1. yes I had forgotten how much I had written over there. I love your new Wednesday feature by the way!

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  2. I look back at my old posts sometimes and wonder how I wrote them. change is good, but so is refreshing the past.

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    1. I definitely look back and wonder where the writing came from! It's about striking a balance I think - a process of trial and error too!

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  3. I look back all of 4 or 5 months (!) to the beginning of the year when I started my blog, and whilst I feel a little more comfortable with it now, I still feel on a very steep learning curve. Trying not to be too self critical and just accept that I am making mistakes which anyone can read (yikes) and not to wince too much when I look back in another 6 months or a year!

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    1. it definitely is a process - but love what you say about the mistakes being out there for all to see! I try and view other blogs as inspiration, rather than drawing comparisons too - otherwise I would just give up!

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